well.. welcome, October.

hohohoo.. sudaaa lama tidak ketak ketik di blog yang sudah hampir terlupakan ini.. Akhirnya setelah sekian lamaaa, tiba2 pengen aja tereak2 di sini.. >.<

well, actually i don't know what should i write. I don't know how to begin.. *sigh*
i'm feeling so bad these days... actually there's nothing bad happen. Everything's good. Maybe this feeling comes because i'm feeling so lonely. This loneliness is killing me... really..

I'm missing my family so damn much.. especially my mom. i miss you so bad, mom... haiz.. this's really weird, you know. Years ago, when mom was around, i really wanted her to be far away from me (well, in distance). But when she's really farrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr away, i really want her to be here. I really need her to accompany me... T___T i miss you mom.. huhuhu.
Okay. i'm homesick. well, actually this mustn't happen again. i've been here for about 1 year. But this feeling appears, again and again. and it becomes worse when i'm alone and i have nothing to do.

This is my first homesick experience alone. Habitually, My bestie (G) and I share this feeling together. (well... to have someone to share this feeling makes me lil bit relieve). But, G is still in beloved hometown. and i'm missing her now bcoz i don't have anyone else to share this feeling with as perfect as her. wkwkwkwk.

Okay, stop grumbling... (sigh)
Btw, i wanna say thanks a bunch a friend of mine, for accompanying me almost everyday via online and text, especially in every moment when i'm feeling so lonely ^^v
it has been a long time i didn't have a friend (well, a guy) to share some thoughts with since my ex-special one "left" me. LOL.
and special thanks for today i give it for you A, my crazy-mate. Long time no chat with ya, talking about our stupid experience in the past made me laugh today. At last. MISS YOU SOOOOOOOOOOOOO :) <3

well, just realize that too many things i miss in this moment.. i don't know what will be written next.. too many thoughts to be written, but i just don't know how to express them in words. I'm totally bad in writing, too bad.

okay. we'll meet again, bloggie. i promise. LOL.